Today was the big day. My daughter started kindergarten. Oh girl! This was a huge deal to me. And she was cool as a cucumber. I, on the other, could have very well been a blubbering idiot, but I somehow willed myself together till the very last instant.
As hubby and I were crossing the threshold to leave her in the hands of her kindergarten teacher I was completely sad. But happy. But...sad. I looked back through the side window and she was sitting there at her little round wood table, in her itty-bitty blue chair, with her tiny pink sweater slung across the back of her chair. She was looking around at all the new kids and all the things she'd soon be learning.
All I saw was wonder. And excitement. And maybe a touch of nerves. But she was so confident and beautiful. And then I couldn't see anymore because there were those damn tears. I just had to turn away and start walking fast before those tears got too serious. Hubby has long legs, he caught up in no time flat.
As I opened a new window to type this blog post and the first words tumbled onto the page, this song came on my iPod: Billy Ray Cyrus, "Ready, Set, Don't Go". Yeah, I have Billy Ray on my iPod. On purpose. No judging.
I kid you not. It was just too much! He talks about his little girl growing up, moving on, not wanting to let go but he has to, etc. He's talking about Miley (ew) and she's way older, but it just seemed like a fitting song for the moment. That restraint that I showed earlier this morning? Yeah, you can forget that. I am sitting here typing with tears streaming. Hard. I can cry all I want with nobody to see but you, and you can't even see me (thankfully)! And now, I need to clean this face up because it's time to go pick up my big kindergartner and hear all about her first day. And hear about my son's first day back at preschool. (This is the same preschool he's been going to, so no major change - except the fact that his sister isn't there with him). I'm sure there are endless stories just from day one and I can't wait! I'll share all the goodies with you.